there's no word such as an 'accident'

nakaka-amaze lang si Lord :) every time na magfa-flashback ako, parang napapa-wow lang ako sa mga ginawa ni Lord :)

so let me share to you one of my story na masasabi kong there's no word such as an accident kay Lord :)

it happened May 2012 when I started to fix my requirements para sa pagtransfer ko ng school.. as far as I remember, 2nd week of May ako nag-ayos ng requirements para mas maaga ko din makuha yung papers ko.. pero ang nakakatawa mas nauna pa sila choy na matapos mag-ayos ng requirements sakin.. bakit?? eh kasi naman hindi ko rin alam.. haha joke lang.. ang dami lang nangyari.. wala pang form137, mali ang spelling ng surname ko, and then ang tagal bago mapirmahan yung papers ko.. every time na naaalala ko yun, natatawa ako, kasi kailangan yun pa talaga yung gamiting way ni God para makilala ko si ate anj / ate marie (siya kasi yung sa registrar) .. kung hindi pala ko nagtransfer ng school eh hindi ko pala siya makikilala.. and nakakabless lang talaga ^^ .. bukod kay tortoise, nagkaroon ulit ako ng ate :D

and favorite verse ko talaga toh... "all things work together for our good" Romans 8:28

minsan kung ano pa yung ayaw natin, kung ano pa yung masakit... ayun pa yung nangyayari.. katulad nga nung sakin yung sa pagtransfer ko ng school.. but then, all those things, all those pains.. ayun yung ginagamit ni Lord kasi may gusto Siya sa'yong ituro, may gusto Siya sa'yong ipakilala.. and never waste that opportunity and privilege to be used by God.. kaya kung sino man yung mga taong pinapakilala sau ni God, for sure there's a purpose behind it.. either may gagawin ka sa buhay niya or may gagawin siya sa buhay mo.. :)

never complain, never ask why.. just OBEY God and He will surely bless you :)

Exercise Your Faith

are you in the point of your life where everything is messed up and you just want to give up? kelangan mo ng healing pero lalo ka pang nagkasakit.. you are in deep pain but it seems like wala naman nangyayari every time na tinatawag mo Siya.. gusto ko lang i-share itong verse na ito...

"He never doubted that God would do what He promised. He never stopped believing. In fact, he grew stronger in his faith and just praised God. Abraham felt sure that God was able to do what He promised."

image from google

Romans 4:20-21 (ERV)

may we have that faith like 'Abraham's faith' where he did not doubt and he did not stop believing even when it seems so impossible.. exercise your faith .. kung binigay nga ni God ung kaisa-isa Niyang anak ano pa kaya ang hindi Niya kayang ibigay? He can and He will fulfill what He has promised :)

for our good :)

at this moment, dapat busy ako sa pag-prepare for tomorrow's defense.. pero ayaw pa ng mind ko mag-focus sa research kasi grabe lang ung joy na nararamdaman ko ngayon :D

I just realize how blessed I am.. naisip ko, grabe talaga si Lord :)

"all things work together for the good" -romans 8:28 (esv)

minsan may mga bagay sa buhay natin na we question God bakit ito nangyari/ nangyayari.. minsan nagagalit o nagtatampo tayo sa Kanya.. but then.. He knows what He is doing.. alam Niya kung ano yung makakabuti satin at hindi.. He knows how to handle every situation in our lives.. and pag dumating ka sa point ng buhay mo na hindi mo gusto yung nangyayari.. TRUST HIM .. may dahilan kung bakit nangyayari yun..

and as proven in my life.. narealize ko lang na siguro kung hindi ko pinagdaanan yung mga bagay na yun, kung sumuko ako agad.. wala ako dito ngayon.. I mean.. without those trials, without those situations, hindi ako ganitong kasaya ngayon.. :D

kaya always remember na if you are bombarded with trials at this moment, God is doing something... He chose you to experience it because He wants to change and use your life :)

it's TIME!

photo taken at LPU cavite :)

ang sarap sa pakiramdam nung feeling na may nagmamahal sa'yo no matter how imperfect you are... yung tipong kahit ang dami mong nagawang kasalanan, He loves you the same..  and that love is from Christ :) .. call me crazy 'coz it really sounds so crazy, pero yung crazy love na yun yung tanging dahilan why I am still alive :) and that same love yung gusto kong i-share at maramdaman ng mga tao sa paligid ko..

last time, habang nagmumuni-muni ako, I was amazed kay Lord na ang dami pala Niyang dinagdag na mga tao sa buhay ko.. and ang tanong, bakit? para san? .. I believe na every person na pinapakilala satin ni Lord is for a purpose, either we need to encourage them or sila naman yung makakatulong satin.. and sabi ko, I was very thankful sa mga taong nakilala ko ngayon, pero ang tanong, may nagawa na kaya kong impact sa buhay nila? I mean, naparamdam ko ba sa kanila yung love na naexperience ko kay Lord?

it's now time for me, and for us to stand.. :)
okay, sabihin na natin na sa una eh sympre makikiramdam muna tayo sa kanila, but after how many months, siguro kailangan na natin mag-stand and share that love we have experienced from Christ .. kasi kung tunay mong naranasan yan, dapat sabik na sabik ka din i-share yan kasi ayaw mong ikaw lang ang nakaka-experience niyan :)

be the SALT and LIGHT in this world -- matthew 5:13-16

A Song for Him

"Out of the abundance of the heart, the mouth speaks..." Luke 6:45

I was the youth at the back part of the room.. crying, so lonely, and feel so alone.. You told me that You are there, You can be my friend.. but I refuse Your love, I reject You once again...

and day goes by, You never stop calling me, You never stop until I said 'yes' ... and that 'yes' starts a new beginning, a new relationship that feels so different..

and I just want to say thank You Jesus, thank You Father, thank You my Best friend, for reaching Your hands to me... I just want to say sorry Jesus, sorry Father, sorry my Best friend for rejecting Your love in my life...

I feel so blessed having You in my life.. and I thought I could not ask for more, but here the tempter comes.. stealing the joy You put in my heart...

I thought I was different now.. I said my life will never be the same again.. but why I am here in this situation once again, hurting You and acting like I don't even know You in my life..

I need Your comfort right now. can You please hug me so tightly, and whisper in my ear how much You love me...

and I just want to say I need You Jesus, I need You Father, I need You my Best friend.. come and change my life again.. please hug me so tightly... love me forever.. hold me so firmly.. 'coz I don't want to be away... away from You...

-- ow yes... feeling writer si ako.. hehe pero basta bigla nalang siyang lumabas at aking isinulat :) .. ayun, ung chorus pa lang ang may tono.. the rest,.. kayo na bahala ang maglagay :D

nakakatuwa si Lord :)

watta face. hahaha

natuwa lang talaga ko sa ginawa ni Lord kagabi :)

ganito kasi un.. ung taong kasama ko sa picture, matagal tagal ko na siyang di nakakakwentuhan, I mean, parang hindi na kami ganung kaclose unlike dati.. and then kahapon nakita ko siya pero hindi ko siya tinawag.. haha .. then nung gabi na, pag-uwi ko, iniisip ko kung itetext ko ba siya.. kaso naisip ko, pag tinext ko siya parang yung sasabihin ko eh paulit ulit lang naman, and baka di rin naman siya magreply.. kaya di ko nalang siya tinext ..

so ginawa ko., nagpray na lang ako, and nakipagkwentuhan kay God.. ung prayer ko eh hindi naman ung "Lord sana po magtext si ate raquel" hahaha di ganun men! .. parang ung prayer ko eh nakikipagkwentuhan kay God, kung ano ung nararamdaman ko that time, and praying para sa safety lang nung mga taong namimiss ko na kung nasan man sila eh sana okay lang sila..na okay lang po Lord kahit na di na kami ganung ka-close kasi alam ko naman na may mga tao ka pang gustong ipa-reach out sa kanila.. and then ayun.. ansarap lang nung feeling after I pray.. and then lumabas ako sa kwarto, iniwan ko ung phone sa kama.. then after an hour bumalik ako tapos nagtext siya.. ang nakakatuwa lang eh ung text niya sakin ay kung ano ung sasabihin ko sana sa kanya.. haha ang galing lang..

nakakatuwa.. pero gusto ko lang linawin na hindi ako natuwa dahil sa nagtext siya, i mean oo masaya ako na nagparamdam siya, haha pero mas masaya ko kasi grabe lang si God.. I mean, kahit sa simpleng bagay lang kumikilos Siya.. sabi nga diba "Ask and you will receive" .. kahit ano pa man yang pinagdadaanan mo, ano man ung nararamdaman mo, share it to God kasi He is the best person na makikinig at makakatulong sa'yo :)

Changed For The Better

"If you want to boast, boast only about the Lord" 1 Corinthians 1:31

Last night (april 24,2013) i was doing this facebook thing..haha hinahanap ko ung pinakadulo ng facebook ko, i was searching for my first status.. and dahil medyo mahaba haba, ang dami kong nabalikang posts ko and events and pictures in my past life.. 

I was laughing at myself 'coz I realized how worst I am 3 or 4 years ago.. Para akong isang bumbilya na walang liwanag.. i mean patapon na.. parang ganun ung past life ko.. in short walang impact.. I was laughing at my old post.. it was all non-sense.. 

Pero nakakatuwa lang, how God changed my life.. parang ini-imagine ko, siguro hirap na hirap si Lord na baguhin ako.. haha pero thank God kasi hindi Siya sumuko sa buhay ko.. buti nalang hindi Siya napagod na baguhin ako..

and now, I can say... "I am NOBODY but God CHANGED my life and made me into SOMEBODY."

---ung picture sa taas, the upper left (my life before) was taken when I was 3rdyr hs. then sa baba nun, that photo was taken during my water baptism last November 13, 2010, 4th yr hs ako that time.. and sa right naman.. my recent picture.. declaring "I am SAVED by His grace."---

lovelots,

jame bulalay :)

wake up laugh from choki :)

yesterday morning (saturday) .. super laughtrip si choki.. haha kasi nga ganito yun...

si choki, every morning dinadala siya ni mamy sa kwarto namin and nasanay din si choki na pagpasok sa kwarto eh talon agad sa kama.. but last thursday, binago ko ung ayos ng kama namin.. kung dati e pa-horizontal siya, ngaun pa vertical na.. nakapasok na naman si choki dun.. pero hindi ko alam kung bakit kahapon eh pagpasok niya sa kwarto eh sumampa siya sa kama bigla.. okay lang sana kung sa bagong ayos ng kama pero hindi.. pagkatalon niya laglag din siya kasi wala naman siyang sinampahang kama.. haha i mean can u imagine jumping na ineexpect mo may sasalo sau pero wala pala.. haha and ayan ung nangyari kay choki ..

and in real life it really happen... ung kama it symbolizes our life, ung buhay natin.. binago na tayo ni Lord pero minsan bumabalik pa din tayo sa dating tayo.. and what happens? nasasaktan tayo.. kahit alam na natin na bago na ung buhay natin at hindi na natin dapat gawin ung mga bagay na dati nating ginagawa, we still dwell in our past.. sabi nga sa verse.. "if anyone is in Christ, he is a NEW creation.. the old has gone and the new has come" - 2 Corinthians 5:17 ..


wag mong sayangin ung bagong buhay na binigay sa iyo ni Lord :)
live it well :)

The Way Back Into Love

this morning, weird thing na kinakanta ko ung song na "Way Back Into Love by Hugh Grant and Drew Barrymore" eventhough hindi ko naman ito napakinggan recently.. and when I search the whole lyrics of the song, natuwa lang ako kasi ang ganda lang ng message:

All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
and if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping You'll be there for me in the end.

maybe we are one of those people who is singing this song.. we are lost and we cant find the way back... but Jesus answered, "I am the WAY, the TRUTH, and the LIFE. No one comes to the Father except through Me."- John 14:6 .. He is the way back.. way back into love.. we need to open our hearts para makapasok Siya sa buhay natin.. :)

???

for the fact that I am an irregular student from this new university, isa sa kailangan kong gawin ay makabisado kahit hindi man sa pangalan, atleast sa muka ay kilala ko ung mga classmate ko para kung may kailangan itanong or what ay madali ko silang makikilala.. and thank God kasi sa almost 5 sections per sem and almost 35-40 students each section ay nakikilala ko naman ang muka nila and for some, pati ung pangalan nila... but i was just really really disappointed about this phrase na sinabi sakin kahapon nung inapproach ko ung isa namin classmate... "classmate ka ba namin" .. wow thank you ha, ..na-disappoint lang talaga ko, sila ang dami dami nila na kailangan kong makilala, pero ako na isang tao lang di nila maalala??? (i dont mean anything..haha pero regular students must also know their irregular classmates which pa-isa isa o dalawa lang naman)....

hindi naman ako galit or what, na-hurt lang talaga ko. haha...

but one thing I realized is, minsan ganun din tayo kay God.. tayong lahat kilala Niya since birth.. everything, alam Niya sa atin, pero minsan tayo parang ang reaction natin kay God ee., "ahhh Siya pala yun", "sino Siya??" ., parang ganun.. sometimes we really do ignore God and minsan wala tayong care na makilala kung sino talaga Siya kasi okay naman tayo ee., we are with our friends, loved ones.. kaya hindi natin Siya pinapansin..

let us take time to know those person na nasa paligid natin.. to know their needs.. and also to know who really God is... :)

I am God's mighty warrior

The Lord is with you, mighty warrior... "but Lord", Gideon asked, "how can I save Israel? My clan is the weakest in Manasseh, and I am the least in my family"
Judges 6:12,15

we are all God's "mighty warrior"..
eventhough sinasabi natin na mahina tayo, na hindi natin kaya, still si God gagamitin Niya tayo and tutulungan Niya tayo.. kailangan lang eh marunong tayong makinig katulad ng ginawa ni Gideon.. God will turn all our weaknesses into strength (anonymous) kaya never tayong dapat paghinanaan ng loob..

----why look at yourself as a failure if God can see victory in your life?