Not Again

Can I Just Jump?

Can I just jump? and end everything?
No. Not. Never.

There's so much more in life. I know that the pain I've been feeling couldn't compare for the joy that awaits me if I passed all the test in life.

I could say Im tired. Tired of pretending to be strong. Tired to be alone. Tired of being judged . Tired of being left behind. Soooo tired.

But one good thing about having this heavy feeling is knowing that God is always by my side. Not because Im good. But because He just love me the way I am. He knows every tear that comes out of my eyes and He is just there to wipe it and comfort me.

Im tired. But I wont give up.