Okay.

Sobrang saya. Sobrang okay ang lahat. Biglang boom!!! Nagising ka nalang isang araw, wala na siya, wala na yung tao/bagay na mahalaga sa'yo.

Pag kinuha ni God yung pinakamahalagang bagay/tao sa'yo, kaya mo pa ba magpasalamat sa Kanya?

Madaling sabihing oo. 'Life goes on' ika nga nila sabay ngiti na parang okay ang lahat. Pero ang totoo, gusto mo nang sumigaw, umiyak at maglaho na lang sa mundo o di naman magtago na lamang sa loob ng pencil case at maging lapis.

Mahalaga sa'yo yun eh! Tapos bigla na lang kukunin sa'yo, mawawala ng basta basta, ganun nalang? Maaari kang magalit, magtampo, magtanong. Ilang araw ka mawawalan ng gana mabuhay, malulungkot. Pero lilipas ang araw, buhay ka pa din.. unti-unting sasaya. Hindi dahil okay na sa'yo yung nangyari kundi dahil unti-unti mong nakikita yung dahilan kung bakit nawala yung bagay/tao na mahalaga sa'yo.

Maaaring ngayon nasasaktan ka, lumuluha. Pero tandaan mo na sa bawat patak ng luha mo ay may naghihintay na magandang istorya na maaari mong ibahagi sa ibang tao.

Reflect: Pag sinabi ba ni God na isuko/ bitawan mo yang tinuturing mong mahalaga sayo, willing ka ba (it may be your dreams, secured job, relationship etc.) ?

Mahirap, pero magtiwala ka na may gagawin Siyang maganda sa buhay mo :)

Not Again

Can I Just Jump?

Can I just jump? and end everything?
No. Not. Never.

There's so much more in life. I know that the pain I've been feeling couldn't compare for the joy that awaits me if I passed all the test in life.

I could say Im tired. Tired of pretending to be strong. Tired to be alone. Tired of being judged . Tired of being left behind. Soooo tired.

But one good thing about having this heavy feeling is knowing that God is always by my side. Not because Im good. But because He just love me the way I am. He knows every tear that comes out of my eyes and He is just there to wipe it and comfort me.

Im tired. But I wont give up.

Suddenly



Isn't it amazing that in just a snap, God can change your situation? All you have to do is to surrender your life to Him and believe that He can do the impossible :)

That night was one of the weirdest and best feeling I've ever experienced.. 'a sweet goodbye' if I should term.. A feeling of amazement and gratefullness... whispering to God 'thank you for using her to bring me back on track..' Thanks Ach :)

The journey of this life wasn't easy.. of course satan is not happy seeing you living in the light that's why he will do everything to distract you.. but hey.. Hold on! God can give you the strength that you need to win the battle.. He can do a great 'suddenly' in your life.. He will not stop sending His instruments to help you grow in your christian walk :)

Keep on fighting!
Keep walking in the light!
Live to make an impact :) 

Malayo

Asan ka na?
Parang ang tagal na ng huli tayong nagkita at nagkausap..
Mas masaya ba dyan kesa dito?
Akala ko saglit ka lang mawawala.. Pero dumaan ang linggo.. buwan.. sumunod na mga buwan.. hanggang umabot na ng taon.. Wala ka pa din..
Sagot mo.. andyan ka lang naman.. Nagaantay na may magaabot ng kamay.. Nagaantay na may makakarinig sa puso mong umiiyak at sumisigaw ng 'tulong'.. nagaantay sa taong tutulong sa'yo para ikaw ay makabalik pero wala..
Pagod ka na.. Mas marami ng tanong ng 'bakit? Paano? at hanggang kelan?' ang tumatakbo sa iyong isipan.. pero sa gitna ng kapaguran, isang mainit na yakap ang nagpaalala sa'yo kung sino ba talaga ang kailangan mo..
Hindi mo pa din alam kung paano makakabalik.. pero lagi mong tandaan na Siya lang ang kailangan mo.. lumayo ka man ng pagkalayo-layo.. hindi Siya mapapagod sundan at ibalik ka sa piling Niya..

lumaban ka.. Laban lang.. di ka nag-iisa.. makakabalik ka rin :)

need YOU now...

it's been a long journey...
too many ups and downs...
I've been wounded and hurt..
will I ever be healed?

I've been running too far..
I thought I was happy...
but in the end,
I see myself crying...

I'm tired and weak..
don't know what road to take..
I need Your hands..
can You take me in Your arms?

reminder

No matter how many times people in this world made you feel that you're worthless.. always remind your self that God will ALWAYS say to you that:


You are LOVED.
You are WORTHY.
You are FORGIVEN.
You are MADE FOR MORE.


Dont mind the pain and the scars.. God can heal and comfort you :)




Still fighting,
Bulalay 👽