Exodus 14:14

"The Lord will fight for you, you need only to be still." Exodus 14:14

Simula ng pumasok ang 2012 ang dami ng nangyari sa buhay ko. Specially nung New Year's Eve. Happy na sad that day. Happy for another year but sad sa mood ng mga tao sa bahay. Another one is yung eye-opener sakin for this year. I don't know how to react in that situation and I don't know what to do. Isa pa, right now hindi ko alam kung anong klaseng sakit ang dumapo sakin but still I know God will never leave me.

I'm tired...
I know ayoko na.. but what keeps me going is the people around me.. it's good to see those people na ikaw yung naging way para makilala nila si Lord.. one of my friend said "kung tatanungin ako kung sinong unang taong nakapag-introduce sakin kay God, sasabihin ko si Jam"... wow nakaktuwa naman... kahit nakakapagod mamuhay dito sa mundong ibabaw nakakatuwang isipin na may na-i-inspire at na-e-encourage ka palang mga tao..

and as I face those problems in my life.. I know hindi madali, I know gusto ko ng mag-give up.. but God said "I WILL FIGHT FOR YOU" GOD will fight for me.. so anung say ng mga kaaway ko di ba??? God is with me.. God is with me.. and God is with me.. Walang dahilan para matakot ako.. walang dahilan para mahiya ako.. at mas lalong walang dahilan para sumuko ako..

God is always by my side.. and I just love staying in His presence.. yung feeling na ang lungkot lungkot mo then God is always there to comfort you.. yung pinanghihinaan ka na ng loob pero bigla mong maaalala yang verse na yan na "GOD WILL FIGHT FOR YOU" then everything will be alright..

this year will be a tougher year.. but as the Lord reveal to me this verse I know ano man ang pagdaanan ko ngaung taon kasama ko si Lord... ang kailangan lang ay wag akong mag-give up.. sabi nga "never let your emotions overcome your faith" ..be still and know that He is God... He is the God that will fight for you... :)

my labor is NOT in vain :)

"Therefore, my dear brothers and sisters, stand firm. Let nothing move you. Always give yourselves fully to the work of the Lord, because you know that your labor in the Lord is not in vain." 1 Corinthians 15:58


are we tired in serving the Lord?? do we feel that nothing happens sa ginagawa natin?? yung feeling na ang tagal tagal mo ng nag-aantay, nagpapakapagod but then yung result wala pa rin... maybe ganyan yung nararanasan mo ngayon, but I tell you, your labor is NOT in vain...napatunayan na yun ni Lord sa buhay ko and now Im willing to share it..

4th year high school ako nung una akong nag-share ng word ni God sa mga classmates ko... ok naman.. may mga rejections, andun pa rin yung mga discouragements and makikita mo din kung naggo-grow ba sila or not.. somehow napapagod na din ako kasi feeling ko wala namang nangyayari.. feeling ko, kahit na anong gawin ko hindi na sila magbabago.. but then sabi nga sa word ni Lord "You must give them my message whether they listen or not." Ezekiel 2:7 ..hindi naman ako ang magbabago sa kanila kundi si Lord.. ang kailangan ko lang gawin ay wag mapagod sa pagshare ng word Niya... and wag mapagod na iinvite sila sa church..

and then...
1st year college na ko.. I was surprised seeing some of my classmates sa church (Church of God) kahit di ko sila tinetext ..not expected.. but I am so happy.. nakakatuwa lang kasi before kailangan mo pa sila tadtarin ng text para lang pumunta sa church, kailangan kasama ka pa nila para pumunta sila doon but then sa isang iglap lang nagbago ang lahat... nakakatuwa si Lord , kahit na college na ako masaya pa din kasi alam kong hindi nasayang yung effort na ginawa ko nung high school.. and hindi lang yan, meron pang isa..

dahil college na ko, syempre new environment naman, bagong classmates :) bagong mga taong pwede kang makapag-share..bagong harvest... ayan ang naka-set sa utak ko bago magpasukan..

God is so good kasi binigyan NIya ko ng smallgroup sa school.. i won't say na bagong sakit sa ulo yun but bagong mga seeds na dapat tumubo :)

July 25,2011 ... first devotion with them.. and kasama nga sa first prayer namin na "hindi matatapos ang sem na ito na walang nag-go-grow" ... natapos ang first sem then the result so great.!! may mga nag-grow.. next sem... eto hindi pa rin tapos ang sem pero makikita mo na halos lahat nag-go-grow na., wow tears!!!! I just can't express how happy I am right now... naririnig ni Lord ang prayers namin.. hindi Niya hinahayaan na hindi kami mag-grow...ang saya-saya lang talaga.. I pray na someday makita ko ang bawat isa na may kanya-kanya na ding smallgroup na hinahandle :)


and right now..
I know ang buhay Kristyano ay hindi madali.. pag pinili mo si Lord mas marami kang nararanasan na hindi mo ineexpect.. mafi-feel mong mag-give up ng maraming beses.. but I tell you.. masarap sa feeling ni Lord.. no joy can equal the joy of serving the Lord.. kung napapagod ka na., rest in God's loving arms,. hayaan mong yakapin ka ni Lord.. hayaan mong punasan Niya yang tears sa mga mata mo.. don't and never give up because God is with you.. nakikita Niya kung anong ginagawa mo.. your labor is not in vain.. wait patiently 'cause God is working.. have faith.!

blessed :D

I am blessed, I am blessed, I am blessed :)
no words can express how happy I am sa smallgroup ko sa school..
nakakatuwa si Lord.. unti unti ng naggo-grow lahat.. thank You kay Lord for changing us.. thank You kasi ginagamit Niya ko, kami, to encourage and inspire each other..

I don't know kung anu pa ang plano ni Lord sakin..hindi ko pa alam if papayagan Niya ko lumipat ng school..but if may papagawa sakin si Lord dun, okay na okay.. :) i want to reach out more youths for God..

kahit nakakalungkot man kasi di mo na lagi makakasama yung mga friends mo, andun yung joy kasi alam mong nag-grow na sila, and alam mong ginamit ka ni Lord.. and I want this life na gamitin pa ni Lord to reach out for more... :) i pray na kahit na magkahiwa hiwalay man kami, we will stand and we will pray for each other... :)


ang saya saya pag si Lord ay nasa buhay ng bawat isa..
excited for more of Him :D
super blessed :D

Arapaap

ARAPAAP --> Ilocano term for Pangarap

This is the first short film that I did. At the same time, this is the first film making contest that I joined. We had fun doing this short film, in spite of discouragements, disappointments...still God made a way for us to finish this one.

Finally January 30,2012.. awards night.. hoping to get an award because we are confident enough that we will win.. but unfortunately..we didn't.. we are surprised..very surprised about the result.. but still, it is God's will.. Even though we didn't won, I am glad that there are people who approach us after the awarding..people who appreciate the story and said it was beautiful-- Arapaap must be the best story.. (but there is no best story award).. but I am happy with the success of the film :)

While making the film, we learned a lot of things.. patience, time management, cooperation, to make your mind function even though how tired you are, laugh so hard, enjoy what you are doing and most of all TRUST.. TRUST THE LORD with all your heart.. this film will not be made possible if God didn't helped us.. the story came from Him.. He use His people to help us finish this one and most of all.. He is the one who gave us strength and wisdom while making this film... that's why I really thank Him for being with us... we are VICTORIOUS because of GOD :)
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this is just the beginning of my dream... to make a film that will inspire people.. I really want to be a director someday or anything that connects in film making.. hoping and praying for God's will.. :)


short background about the story or how we came up with the story of Arapaap..
the theme was (portrayal of Filipino life revealing the hopes and dreams of every Juan dela Cruz towards success and fulfillment as they contribute to the society)

the inspiration in making the story of Arapaap was based on reality and experience as well.. As a student who has a dream, money or our status in our life must not be a hindrance in reaching our goals... it may appear impossible for some but if you will put your trust to the one who made us --God, there will never be an impossible word... "Everything is possible for Him who believes" as it is said to Mark 9:23... NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE!!! just trust God.. Don't worry, He will use a lot of people just to reach you.. God can see you, God can hear you, God loves you :D


may you be blessed with this one...
just continue dreaming..
God knows what's best for you :D

Matthew West - Strong Enough

this is what i feel...
i dont have the words to say what's inside of me right now but this song has the perfect words....

mixed emotions.. that's all i can say..
i'm tired of being a pretender.. always pretending that I am strong which is not.. i cant explain myself., i cant tell to anyone what i feel..

God You are all I need.. im not strong.. but by Your strength I know that I can face every challenges that I am encountering right now...

I dont know God what's Your plan for me, but I trust in You with my whole heart.. I dont know what's going on around me.. a lot of changes.. there are lot of things that i suddenly miss, I dont know why.. I feel so sad for myself about the things that I missed because of being too busy about myself..

i feel like crying right now..
God let Your strength be my strength.. I want to serve You with all of me.. a total surrender.. i dont know if a new environment will help me., but God, let Your will be done..



by God's strength...

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"stronger bonding towards stronger relationship with God" :)

-at yan ang masasabi ko...
super blessed !!! nakaktuwa kasi si Lord, nilagay Niya talaga ko sa tamang school at sa tamang course. Siguro kung di ko Siya sinunod, di ko makikilala yung mga kaibigan ko.

July 25, ayan yung araw na nagsimula kaming magkaroon ng devotion with my friends (jamine, alexis, feah, mikee, marechris, jessica, abbhie, aisha, pat and aira) kabado ako nung una, di ko alam kung paano magsisimula or kung anong gagawin pero nakakablessed lang kasi interested din pala sila... super kong namiss ang magkaroon ng sharing.. nakakatuwa din kasi ang dami mong matututunan sa kanila, ang dami nilang kwento sa buhay :)

second week ng devotion namin, nakakalungkot lang kasi nabawasan kami ng dalawa, dahil di na sila masyadong nasama samin, but ang galing lang kasi may pumalit naman na dalawa ulit :)

honestly wala kong masabi sa sobrang saya. haha. nakakablessed kasi yung alam mong ikaw yung ginagamit ni Lord to reach out for them. and ayun din yung gusto kong mangyari sa mga friends ko, na at the perfect time, sama sama na kaming magreach out... yung imbes na kami yung ireach out, kami na ang magrireach out..

sabi nga everything was for a purpose, and i believe na this is the perfect time to stand and take up my cross., super hirap pero ang saya.. kasi yung sa every effort na ginagawa natin. in return God give us the joy .. nakakatuwa kaya yung ikaw yung ginagamit ni Lord to reach out for other people :)

and ngayon, ang tanong, ano ba yung best na pwede mong gawin sa friends mo??., di ba ayun ay to bring them closer to God.. if you experience the love of God its time naman siguro na ishare natin yung love na yun sa iba.. :) make your friends feel how special they are to God :)

God bless!!! share the love :D

why do i love my God?

while i was thinking a simple question comes out of my mind .."why do i love my God?"... then i started thinking and thinking finding an answer to that simple question...

before, yung siguro hindi ko pa ganun kakilala si Lord, ang dami daming bagay na ginagawa ko na wala naman talagang saysay... ang dami kong kaibigan or kakwentuhan... but when the time came that i used to know who God really is... everything changed... hindi lang sakin, pati na din sa environment ko...

yung mga kaibigan ko, somehow i know nagalit sila sakin, medyo iwas...but hindi ko na pinansin yun..kasi lagi kong iniisip yung sinabi ni kuya justin nun na "hindi ka dapat sa tao magalit kundi kay satan na kumokontrol sa kanila"..kaya hindi ako nagalit sa kanila... ang hirap nung feeling kasi wala kang masamahan ..lalo na kaibigan mo pa., but God just love me so much kasi may binigay Siyang kapalit sa mga kaibigan ko na yun that's why i am very thankful....

... pero ngayon naman di na galit sakin yung mga friends ko, naintindihan naman siguro nila yun... then meron pang isang pangyayari, yung mga classmates ko ng elementary, they went to our house.. that was Sunday of November.. actually nakasalubong ko na sila pauwi pero pumunta din sila sa bahay which is i didn't expect... then yung nasa bahay na sila naririnig ko sabi nila sakin or tawag nila sakin ay "sister jam" then i ask why.. tapos ayun nga sabi kasi nila yung mga nababasa daw nilang post ko sa fb is about kay God.. then medyo na hurt ako nun but di ko na lang pinakita sa kanila... nung nakaalis na sila.. parang disappointed talaga ako na, "bakit ganun, may masama ba sa ginagawa ko???" talagang super down yung feeling ko but syempre di naman ako nagpatalo dun...

..ito pa isa pang pangyayari,.. its november pa rin.. magfifield trip na kasi kami.. november 13, lahat kasama pwera lang sakin.. then our teacher is aking me to join, pero sabi ko, "hindi po talaga ako pwede kasi water baptism ko po that day".. then ,,panu ba??di ko maexplain kung panu yung sinabi ng teacher ko pero nainsulto talaga ako dun.. although gusto ko talagang sumama pero uunahin ko pa ba yung fieldtrip na yun., so talagang nasaktan lang ako dun sa reaction ng teacher ko, values teacher pa naman., but anyway.. past is past

..and ito last na siguro for now.. nangyari naman ito nung february.. i invite kasi my classmate to come with me in church., then yun nagstart na ng praise and worship wala pa din siya.. pero dumating siya nung mga worship song na ata yung kinakanta.. naramdaman ko yung pagdating niya kasi parang siniko niya ata ako., but that time busy ako sa pagwoworship kay Lord kaya di ko siya pinansin, nakapikit din kasi yung mata ko nun., tapos parang nakakadisappoint lang kasi one of my closest friend ko siya, tapos sabi nung isa naming kasama, parang pinagtatawanan daw ako nung friend ko na yun., then naspeechless na lang ako...

..super saya noh?? daming disappointments, super sakit nung mga pang-iinsulto... kung iisipin ko nga nakakadiscourage.. wag na lang kaya ako magpatuloy kay God.. but it's a BIG NO palagi... and why do i love my God?? why i will keep my eyes on Him?? bakit sa mga nangyari yun gusto ko pa rin sa Kanya???., kasi sa Kanya ko lang naramdaman yung tunay na pagmamahal... i love my God because He never leave me.. He never fail to listen... yes mahirap yung mga dumadaan sa buhay ko., and i know marami pang dadating na tao to put me down.. but one thing is for sure., i am with God.. kahit na gaano pang kasakit hindi na ako babalik sa dating ako.. hindi ko ikakahiya si Lord sa buhay ko... i love my God because He is the only one who comforts me, heal me,gives me strength.. the only person who gives me hope...

UNFAILING LOVE... yun ang meron kay Lord kaya mahal na mahal ko siya :) walang bayad yung pagmamahal na yun., you just need to allow God to enter in your life, in your heart...


at kung maranasan mo man yung mga ganyang pangyayari, always remember this na "hindi tayo dapat tumingin sa tao., hindi tayo dapat makinig sa sinasabi ng tao.. ano naman kung dinadown ka nila??.ano naman kung ayaw nila sa ginagawa mo, ano naman kung ganyan ang itsura mo??., remember God is looking in our hearts hindi sa physical na itsura hindi sa kung anong meron ka.. make a stand!!.. sabi nga ni Lord sa word Niya, "a righteous man may have many troubles but the Lord delivers them from them all, He protects all of his bones, not one of them will be broken"-Psalm 34:19-20... pag na kay Lord ka, walang ibang makakagalaw sa iyo :)

---i will stand firm para kay Lord, kahit gaano pang kadaming discouragement ang dumating.. i will be still and know that He is my God, my BIG GOD..---