Can I Just Jump?

Can I just jump? and end everything?
No. Not. Never.

There's so much more in life. I know that the pain I've been feeling couldn't compare for the joy that awaits me if I passed all the test in life.

I could say Im tired. Tired of pretending to be strong. Tired to be alone. Tired of being judged . Tired of being left behind. Soooo tired.

But one good thing about having this heavy feeling is knowing that God is always by my side. Not because Im good. But because He just love me the way I am. He knows every tear that comes out of my eyes and He is just there to wipe it and comfort me.

Im tired. But I wont give up.

Suddenly



Isn't it amazing that in just a snap, God can change your situation? All you have to do is to surrender your life to Him and believe that He can do the impossible :)

That night was one of the weirdest and best feeling I've ever experienced.. 'a sweet goodbye' if I should term.. A feeling of amazement and gratefullness... whispering to God 'thank you for using her to bring me back on track..' Thanks Ach :)

The journey of this life wasn't easy.. of course satan is not happy seeing you living in the light that's why he will do everything to distract you.. but hey.. Hold on! God can give you the strength that you need to win the battle.. He can do a great 'suddenly' in your life.. He will not stop sending His instruments to help you grow in your christian walk :)

Keep on fighting!
Keep walking in the light!
Live to make an impact :) 

Malayo

Asan ka na?
Parang ang tagal na ng huli tayong nagkita at nagkausap..
Mas masaya ba dyan kesa dito?
Akala ko saglit ka lang mawawala.. Pero dumaan ang linggo.. buwan.. sumunod na mga buwan.. hanggang umabot na ng taon.. Wala ka pa din..
Sagot mo.. andyan ka lang naman.. Nagaantay na may magaabot ng kamay.. Nagaantay na may makakarinig sa puso mong umiiyak at sumisigaw ng 'tulong'.. nagaantay sa taong tutulong sa'yo para ikaw ay makabalik pero wala..
Pagod ka na.. Mas marami ng tanong ng 'bakit? Paano? at hanggang kelan?' ang tumatakbo sa iyong isipan.. pero sa gitna ng kapaguran, isang mainit na yakap ang nagpaalala sa'yo kung sino ba talaga ang kailangan mo..
Hindi mo pa din alam kung paano makakabalik.. pero lagi mong tandaan na Siya lang ang kailangan mo.. lumayo ka man ng pagkalayo-layo.. hindi Siya mapapagod sundan at ibalik ka sa piling Niya..

lumaban ka.. Laban lang.. di ka nag-iisa.. makakabalik ka rin :)

need YOU now...

it's been a long journey...
too many ups and downs...
I've been wounded and hurt..
will I ever be healed?

I've been running too far..
I thought I was happy...
but in the end,
I see myself crying...

I'm tired and weak..
don't know what road to take..
I need Your hands..
can You take me in Your arms?

reminder

No matter how many times people in this world made you feel that you're worthless.. always remind your self that God will ALWAYS say to you that:


You are LOVED.
You are WORTHY.
You are FORGIVEN.
You are MADE FOR MORE.


Dont mind the pain and the scars.. God can heal and comfort you :)




Still fighting,
Bulalay 👽

sa tamang panahon :)



Yung darating yung araw na pagtatawanan natin yung oras na hinampas hampas mo ko at yung oras na sobrang takot at kaba ka dahil sa first timer ka sa church.. aantayin ko yung araw na yun.. Yung araw kung san naggrow ka na at sa araw na yun nirereminisce lang natin lahat kung paano nagsimula yung journey mo kay God :)


PS. Sa araw na yun, sana buhay pa ko para sabay tayong nakikipagfellowship kay God :) at kung wala na ko, I hope and I pray na magkita tayo sa langit at dun tayo makikipagfellowship kay God at magkkwentuhan ng ginawa Niya sa buhay natin :)


iloveyoudearestBestfriend :)

unknown..

I miss you... yes YOU ARE! I miss your voice.. Your beautiful voice that sounds like an angel when you sing.. I miss the way you smile.. Yes your smile that inspire me.. I miss the way you laugh, the way you speak, the way you joke.. I miss the whole you :(

I was surprised that you're now leaving everything behind .. You're leaving me :'( I was calming myself saying it's okay coz i know you'll be happier with your choice but it was really painful :(  ..and everytime I remember you... one phrase will always come out of my mind.. 'I miss you' :( :)

Thank you for being my secret friend.. My secret inspiration.. My secret smile.. and I know all of these things I said were unknown to you or to anyone because it's a secret that I keep between me myself and I.. and of course with God :)
I will really miss you :( :)